Wednesday, May 15, 2013
♥ Being open, but very private
Today in class we were told to complete a short survey, which is to determine what kind of person we are when facing arising situations. With one of the options 'post to blog immediately'. I picked that, only to remember a moment later, i've been keeping my blog unknown to many. It may seem weird, posting my thoughts online, yet not wanting people to know. Actually I just don't want most friends to know. Strange to many, my most well kept secrets are kept at the most unlikely places. In fact, i often tell embarrassing moments or things about me that i am unwilling people to know to people who are no where near close to me. Laugh over it, and they won't even think you are actually that secretive about it since they believe they are not as close enough to hear secrets anyway. Perfect place? I certainly think so. Well, unless you're a really close friend, i'll let you know first hand then =D
5/15/2013 10:15:00 PM
Sunday, May 12, 2013
♥ Droughts
Life recently have become a constant drought. So dry, and even the occasional oasis can hardly bring the colours out again. Sometimes i feel so fortunate that i am studying supply chain management, but the next, i feel that i have hit yet another road block. As despite the endless opportunities and careers this course offers, i feel distant and unwilling to get myself spun into such an industry. I was happy with my timetable when i first saw it, now really having my days run by such a schedule, i feel the dread. Or perhaps it's just the idea that when i've finally completed this horror, the real horror of stepping out into the working environment will begin. I can't describe just how much i would like to study in a university and be a graduate. But it seem so freaking far! Just how long will i be able to work enough for my studying funds, and finally work enough for the housing, car etc. Sometimes i wished that i had a cca in poly! It's really an important source of life, where lots of people you will get to know and to have that other thing other than just simply studying and dealing with projects all the way. I really miss performing. =( Kind of wished that i actually took the extra IS module since year 2 sem 1, instead of getting exempted form it as i was learning french. Though the module i started taking in year 2 sem 2 was pretty dry, really met people who can actually continue being friends with after that. Perhaps i was just lucky, because i hadn't heard anyone else who get groupmates as fun as mine! We're always the group giggling away and getting the nasty looks from the lecturer. Currently my TCM classes have rather dull people, though there's an ah beng to create some entertainment occasionally. I'm not exactly looking forward to going to the medical institution with them.
Talking to my classmate a few days ago, i think i'll have to rethink my personal branding. LOL. Like im some company, but anyway, just surprised with all the things that people tell me, about me! I come across as someone super nice, on the quiet side, and of course, a very good girl. What a drastic change it is when years back my name will definitely be associated with the word 'bitch'. Of course it wasn't nice, there was lots of drama associated with it as well, and i hated it. Tuning everything down, i guess the amount of people knowing my inner bitch now is really scarce. From full scale drama to now super dry life, think i'm over doing it. =/ And the thing about being nice, people have this whole instant package of your image without even really knowing you. Like being surprised at me that i mixes some dialect into my speech(they see it as vulgarities i dono y), that i actually love action pact shows, that i hate romance novels, that i do yell, that i am certainly going to shoot vulgarities at you if you piss me off, that my sarcastic level is pretty high and gets higher the more i dislike you(yes, i do dislike some people). I'm not little miss happy! Plus I CAN TAKE JOKES! Another thing i find weird to be associated with quieter people is that they can't take jokes. I had a friend in sec school who took months before she realise i can joke. Sometimes i joke so sarcastically that some people can't take it. I suppose it's not me that can't take jokes, but can you take it when i joke?
Talking to my classmate a few days ago, i think i'll have to rethink my personal branding. LOL. Like im some company, but anyway, just surprised with all the things that people tell me, about me! I come across as someone super nice, on the quiet side, and of course, a very good girl. What a drastic change it is when years back my name will definitely be associated with the word 'bitch'. Of course it wasn't nice, there was lots of drama associated with it as well, and i hated it. Tuning everything down, i guess the amount of people knowing my inner bitch now is really scarce. From full scale drama to now super dry life, think i'm over doing it. =/ And the thing about being nice, people have this whole instant package of your image without even really knowing you. Like being surprised at me that i mixes some dialect into my speech(they see it as vulgarities i dono y), that i actually love action pact shows, that i hate romance novels, that i do yell, that i am certainly going to shoot vulgarities at you if you piss me off, that my sarcastic level is pretty high and gets higher the more i dislike you(yes, i do dislike some people). I'm not little miss happy! Plus I CAN TAKE JOKES! Another thing i find weird to be associated with quieter people is that they can't take jokes. I had a friend in sec school who took months before she realise i can joke. Sometimes i joke so sarcastically that some people can't take it. I suppose it's not me that can't take jokes, but can you take it when i joke?
5/12/2013 03:28:00 PM