Wednesday, June 6, 2012

That is, until you really try to live by this phrase. My feet seem to jerk back and forth, all the time remains rooted to the same spot. My mind starts to conflict with contradicting ideas, as if a devil and angel are having a fierce battle. Due to the battle, a strike occurs in my head, and nothing productive gets out of it anymore. >.<

It's the new cca I've been plotting. Plus the upcoming test this friday, plus my social life, plus my projects that have been piling up. It's just the time the time of the year, where everything starts to clash due to the time constraints. It is difficult to declare that this is the period of time that i actually want to start something new and considerably drastic in my life(well, or i feel it's drastic). On top of that, i can't help but wonder if it is going to be wise trying to start a new cca when everyone else is getting rid of the cca responsibilities to study for the tests, and looking forward to the holidays that are coming. More than a thousand doubts run in my head ever time i think about the planning of the cca again. Gosh!! I never knew it's going to be such a dilemma! It is so difficult just to take a chance. My plan always seem to flaw at certain places. When i thought i am done with certain aspects, new problems starts to pop out again. So i re-constructed it, again and again. 

Will i ever manage to get it done by the time i graduate?